Favorite Photos

I think the most frustrating part of being a step-parent who does not have access to their step-children is the lack of family photos I have.  In my head I look at outdated photos wishing we had the opportunity to take a family photo like I wanted. Instead the closest thing I have is the … Continue reading Favorite Photos

How Others Will Judge Us Now And In The Future

Xander and Tori, It’s been 83 weeks and 3 days since we signed the paperwork to give you want you and your mom wanted. Your dad and I have been busy.  We decided to join a local gym here in town. I go after work every day except for Mondays and Thursdays because of other … Continue reading How Others Will Judge Us Now And In The Future

Loss Of A Daughter

Hello, Ok so the purpose of this blog today is to talk about the unnatural grief cycle some women take when they experience the loss of a child. The loss of a child is horrible. It not only impacts the mother but the father is well. Women will often take responsibility for the loss of … Continue reading Loss Of A Daughter

Grandparents Saving Our Society Today

2.7 million of the 80 million grandparents that are raising their grandchildren are responsible for most of the basic needs of the children living with them.[1] Over 50% of these 80 Million grandparents talk with their grandchildren about problems they are having as well as instilling morals and values, and religion or spirituality within these … Continue reading Grandparents Saving Our Society Today

Crappy People – Talk To The Hand

Well we can now hope the crazy madness on the roads will come to an end considering Spring Break is now over. Between almost getting T-Boned by a bus on Friday and then being T-Boned from another car while making a turn under the highway bridge. I am glad that Spring Break is finally over. … Continue reading Crappy People – Talk To The Hand

My Stepchildren Xander and Tori – 3880

So like most Sundays I got dressed put on my head covering and went to church. I started with 845 Matins and Continued on through services till about 1130. I chanted, I smelled the incense, but today I lit a candle praying for my stepchildren. I don’t know why I did today, but I did. … Continue reading My Stepchildren Xander and Tori – 3880


I think the hardest part about being a stepmom was the lack of control I had over anything in my house. I always felt like IT was there. It wasn’t the fact that IT was it just felt like it. Every decision had to be thought out and processed. War games is what I call … Continue reading IT

Sodom and Gomorrah

Xander and Tori, Some days are better than others. Today is not one of those good days. I am sick and all I want is a hug from my step-children. Yet I will not get one of those for at least 3913 days. I was able to make me some hot tea with some sweetener … Continue reading Sodom and Gomorrah

Cuck To His Own Wife – Smear Campaign

I uploaded a new podcast today. Please check it out.  If there is a topic you would like me to cover please reach out to me via the contact tab of the website. Today we are going to be talking about probably the second most painful defense tactic used by HCBM. This is called the … Continue reading Cuck To His Own Wife – Smear Campaign

Dear Santa,

Dear Santa, In 2016 17.2 million children lived only with their mothers. These 17.2 million children will not get to see their Dad this Christmas. My two step-children will be two of those 17.2 children. This will be our second Christmas without our children. A second Christmas with no holiday meal, Christmas presents, or Midnight … Continue reading Dear Santa,