October 19th, 2016
So after over two years of trying to do what is right for my step-kids my husband and I made the decision after several weeks and months in prayer to sign the rights of his children away so the children can not worry about honoring mother and father who did not agree on any life style choices for the children. The children will now have to worry about honoring the ways and rules of one parent. We did our Christianan duty baptizing them. Introducing them to God and Jesus. The last thing their father did for them was to give them their copies of their bibles. We continue to pray that the seeds and sacrifice we made today providing them peace, at last, will flourish and they will seek us when they turn 18.
Until then we pray.
O GOD, whose fatherly care reacheth to the uttermost parts of the earth; We humbly beseech thee graciously to behold and bless those whom we love, now absent from us. Defend them from all dangers of soul and body; and grant that both they and we, drawing nearer to thee, may be bound together by thy love in the communion of thy Holy Spirit, and in the fellowship of thy saints; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
I made this post almost a year ago on Facebook. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. It was the day my husband and I had to finally grow up and be real parents. We sacrificed seeing our children so they could have peace and rest. The children had spent two years dealing with a mother who was looking for my husband to kill himself. My husband was wanting to be the positive role model for his children. Yet we finally stopped on that day and walked away. When we walked away I stopped. I became lost in a sea of pain and crying. I haven’t made many steps forward so today I figured I would begin again. Trying to put one foot in front of the other. As the year mark approaches we finally are going to make efforts together to clear out the children’s rooms and make them into offices for ourselves. I guess I will have to take off the butterfly stickers on Tori’s door. I am also going to be taking down our family saying stickers off the wall.
I loved them more than words can say. They were my children. I guess that is why it has been so hard to move one and continue. Well, I guess I will end this here. I am hoping to write about 4 or 5 times a week but no promises. Take a look at my youtube video I posted of Remembering Our Family to kind of get an idea how we used to be.